Sadness & Hatred ( ._.)

  Hmm, currently my father is rushing to go my grandma house, located in Sg. Buloh, Selangor, after received call from my uncle. He said that my grandma, i called her Tok Biru, is unfortunately in comma at hospital ward.
It's really heart-breaking to heard news such that. Meanwhile, me just brought back my brother from Sabak Bernam to home for his practical test of driving license. I feel very, very bad because i did not return with my father. I can't return because i have to escort my brother for his stupid two-days practical test. >:/ 
( why he never good in anything beside game?!)

Tok Biru, she's very old, sometime cranky.. (>.<) but even though sometime i did bad behave to her, she never stop helping me, sent me pocket money, sent me food, provided me shelter~.. I think sometime it's best for me to stay a bit far from her but yet close to her then we could keep good relationship. She's always my grandmother, my father's mom, even whatever happen.
Even how much some time i annoyed her, I love her always. Today, I she fainted in her house and sent to hospital. She lack of blood, same problem again always. In no matter she tried to eat blood building food, she still have the complication.

Abah (father), I hope your journey is safe and sound, you're great father and son. 
 
Tok Biru, I pray to God to give you the best, hope your health is better and everything going alright. Don't leave us yet ;_;. Amin.
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I HAVE PROBLEM IN ANGER MANAGEMENT X:

 Problems? Yes.

Another irritating event occurred again. Do you know an empty tin? Try knock it out and it sound very very loud, however the inside is nothing. This is metaphor given for a person I hate in my life.

Yeah, trying so hard to impress people around him by bragging so much that in fact in real he got nothing.
Oh come on. Be real man, enough making people around you sick and those who fall for the words are stupid whores.


"Yo girl I'm at this cool place bla bla.. do you want I buy you something expensive~?"
*in fact currently broken poor*

--PFFTTT!---

You just made me puke with your sick behavior and it sicken me to be around you. It's best for us to stay awhile for awhile. Why? because we used to be friend. I thought you were noble friend, but you turned to someone cheap and phony. Urgh.

or

perhaps i was blinded to be a friend of yours? Why? A friend would help each other without thinking  something back. Ohh? I asked you a favour and you told me "I'll help you if you give me something"
Now, I see ya.. oh yes. I mistaken to look you as close friend. You're mine business friend :] 
Ah i see, it's very clear now.


Let's go with your way. Nobody hurts right?

I'll just ignore, ignore.. and keep trying to ignore.